He had been gone for a month.
Helga knew it was her doing; she only stopped their relationship to save it. It was going to end, she would tell herself, so it was best it ended at its peak. However, his absence only amplified her ever growing feelings towards him, despite her constant denial of them. With that realization, she became aware that not only has she sabotaged their romantic relationship, Salazar would probably never speak to her again.
She gave herself one moment to meet his gaze as he rode by, and in that moment her fears became reality.